bad habits

All the things I learned about myself when there was nothing to do and yet, everything on my to do list (somehow):

I find comfort in music, even when I'm in a bad mood, I feed off of it. Sometimes when I'm feeling down the music makes me feel worse but better at the same time, it's hard to explain, but I still listen to it. Ir helps me to fall asleep and get up in the morning, and sometimes it helps me get though the day.

I also found out that I kind of find comfort in food if I have it available. And I eat when I'm bored too. Lucky for me though, it doesn't show that much except a little in my stomach area. No abs of Steel here!

I have a really really bad habit of finding projects that I want to finish before I move on, but then I don't do them, which allows me to justify not getting done with other stuff like homework. "Oh, I'll just wait to do my homework until I get that shelf put up." But the truth is that the shelf won't get put up until next week and I'll find myself scrambling to finish up my homework the last minute before it's due if I attempt to do it at all.

I'm a pack rat. If it comes to saving stuff that I don't have room for, I can find a space for it somewhere. As it says in my profile, I like to be so organized that "My closet is organized my color." Which brings me to the next one...

I am also a bit of a clean freak, and I can sometimes go overboard with that aspect. For instance, this last summer I was trying to keep my parents entire house organized or at least get it that way before I left. For some reason I had the notion that their clutter was affecting my oranization, and I won't deny myself that notion yet. Anyway, I was so obsessed that when my mom tried to help, I got offensive and I wouldn't let her, I kept thinking if I left it up to them it would never get done and it would just be as messy or more messy the next time I got back. It got to the point one time where I actually got into a tug of war with her over some stuff that she claimed that she was going to take care of when I already had it in a place that seemed pretty suitable. It happened to be some camping gear, and she was taking it downstairs, when I already had a lot of, if not most of the camping stuff upstairs. I figured that stuff should stay there together, but whatever.

That's enough ranting for this morning, Hopefully I can get some homework done tomorrow, I gotta go, there's a good song on the radio...