I've been pretty lonely lately, in two ways. One: When I'm at home at night by myself. Of course then, I'm literally alone, but it makes me feel alone in life. It's then that I feel like I don't really mean anything to the people in my life. I'm talking about school and work relationships. I know there are people in my life whom I can rely on and whom I can expect to care about me such as my family and close friends. But I hardly get to talk to them because they are geographically distant to me, and that makes me feel emotionally distant as well.
Two: The fact that I don't have a girlfriend is really bugging me. I always choke (metaphorically speaking) when the time comes for me to ask a girl on a date or make a move to let her know that I'm interested in her. The other problem is that I'm a bit picky. Since my last girlfriend several years ago, there's only been three girls that I've been interested in enough to want to ask them on a date. I feel like a girlfriend could be great for me, I need someone that I can be a man for, and I don't mean that in a sexist way, I mean to be a mature adult who happens to be male. I also want someone who will be there to push me when I'm feeling stubborn, or can't find any motivation. But there in lies the problem. I want someone who will help me be a better person, but what I need is to work on myself so I can be that better person for her, before I even ask her out. right?
S.A.D. is seasonal affective disorder. I sorta feel like I might have that, because winter is always the worst for me, but I think it is just an obscure excuse for me because school happens to be during the winter which always brings me down, and I don't see as much sun which has affect on my mood as well. Also, I'm going through some pretty rough times with school, not just the usual, homework and studying stuff, and that is what is bringing all of these personal problems to the surface right now.
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I have found something that helps a lot with SAD. I program an 85W light (well the 12W energy saver equivalent) to switch on above my sleepy head at 7.45 every morning. This wakes me up painlessly and eventually regulates my sleep / mood cycles. At the week-end I put it at 9.45 because my sleep cycles are around 2 hours so this means I do not de-synchronise. I also program a reminder at 22.45 that I should be going to bed and I do as soon as I feel tired after that clock.
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I know how you feel,this sounds a lot like me, but I'm not so picky about people I like. And there's the fact that I'm a girl. By the way you have some cool side gadgets.I'm new to the site and have no idea how to do that kind of thing haha :P
Hi there! You write very nicely. You know,winter tends to do that to us, we get to spend more time at home, imprisoned by our own thought and feelings. It gets pretty lonely if you don't have someone to share these with. I hear and feel you. I've been there, and sometimes still find myself in your shoes. Now, let's not dwell on this, but get out and meet someone interesting! Go to a coffee shop or a bookstore. These kinda places can be very cozy during the cold weather. Keep us posted! :)
the best way to get a girl is to be yourself sounds so simple but it's true. also just remember asking a girl out is a game of chance don't put too much pressure on yourself to ask her out just do it and u don't have to have a facy pick up line most girls find those corny, you'd be surprised how effective something as simple as 'I like your vibe can I take u out for coffee sometime' is, just be calm about it. and there is nothing wrong with having high standards just don't be impractical. good luck. follow my blog @ visit my blog http://www.sweetpinkpill.blogspot.com/
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